doubt

I do not believe I am the only entrepreneur who has, at some point, struggled with these questions:

Do I have it in me to build a successful company? Will it be worth it and when? What and why did I start again?

We can come up with a million reasons why this thing will never work:

I am not very organized. I have too many passions. I am spread thin. I have to keep my day job. I am making up everything as I go along.

I wonder how many of us harbor doubt versus how many of us live with absolute confidence, and no regrets. I wonder also how these mindsets translate into success, or lack thereof. Perhaps some entrepreneurs just know, without question, this is what they’re supposed to be doing.

I started my business when I was pregnant. I became a certified organic tea processor less than two weeks before giving birth. And on the day I woke up to become a mother, my naiveté blew away like dandelion seeds. How was I going to raise a child and grow a business and write stories, all at the same time, with no child care or employees?

So I’ve had to make changes, take time off, find inspiration and motivation and help. I kept going because giving up on my business felt like giving up on a child. You have to let them go eventually, but you hope never to give up on them.

Herbal Philosophy has seen unprecedented growth in the past year, and next year will be even better, according to recent events. And I’m starting to think that maybe it’s not criminal, or ruinous, to have doubts. I’ve gotten somewhere from nowhere. I couldn’t visualize the path, but I found my way in the dark. And it’s not looking so dark anymore. The dawn has arrived.

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2 thoughts on “doubt

  1. Oh, yay! I’m so happy to hear this! You deserve the success! This is how the best things come to us…They come often when we are most doubtful and uncertain about when the light at the end of the tunnel will ever come.

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    1. I need to remember to count my blessings. The more I *see* the light, the bright it will become, I believe. Thank you, as usual for your support.

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